{"id":5594,"date":"2015-09-18T18:26:59","date_gmt":"2015-09-18T22:26:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/?p=5594"},"modified":"2019-05-15T13:48:37","modified_gmt":"2019-05-15T17:48:37","slug":"day-74-dipping-in","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/?p=5594","title":{"rendered":"Day 74: Dipping in"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I woke up early this morning certain of one thing: I will not live past this year. I will not survive past the age of 56.<\/p>\n<p>It was not a panic, nor a vague fear. Just a clear understanding: 56 is it, the final year.<\/p>\n<p>There was no image of death in a fiery wreck or a wasting away of cancer. Only the knowledge.<\/p>\n<p>I digested this with detached calm, and then thought, &#8220;Hell, I better get moving on these art projects!&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>And as I lay there, I saw clearly what petty things had gotten in my way, saw a different kind of year ahead, saw a furious whirlwind of creation to bring into the physical world those visions of my imaginings, a maelstrom that absorbs the whole universe.<\/p>\n<p>It begins today.<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s still hot &#8211; high 80s &#8211; in Atlanta, and on a weekday afternoon no one was at the community pool. I took my camera and a large gray sheet, and filmed in slow motion my dance with death.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/youtu.be\/4G2dhJxB9ZA\">https:\/\/youtu.be\/4G2dhJxB9ZA<\/a><\/p>\n<p>[No sound in this video]<\/p>\n<p>I gave over to my limbs the freedom they needed, let them create shapes of struggle and escape, flailing and flight.<\/p>\n<p>Happier, in a certain childlike way, than I have been in a long while.<\/p>\n<p>I may not live to be 100. But today my mortality, in all its certainty, prolonged my life.<\/p>\n<p>Today&#8217;s penny could only be a 2015. If I had a 2016, I&#8217;d use that.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/09\/Day-75-2015.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone wp-image-5596 size-medium\" src=\"http:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/09\/Day-75-2015-300x247.jpg\" alt=\"Day 74 2015\" width=\"300\" height=\"247\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/09\/Day-75-2015-300x247.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/09\/Day-75-2015-1024x844.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/09\/Day-75-2015.jpg 1360w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I woke up early this morning certain of one thing: I will not live past this year. I will not survive past the age of 56. It was not a panic, nor a vague fear. Just a clear understanding: 56 is it, the final year. There was no image of death in a fiery wreck &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/?p=5594\" class=\"more-link\">read more <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Day 74: Dipping in<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":5597,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[316],"tags":[67,35,105,271,270,145],"class_list":["post-5594","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-improvisation","tag-67","tag-art","tag-death","tag-dissolution","tag-video","tag-water"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5594","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=5594"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5594\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5599,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5594\/revisions\/5599"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/5597"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=5594"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=5594"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=5594"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}