{"id":6335,"date":"2016-01-02T20:42:52","date_gmt":"2016-01-03T01:42:52","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/?p=6335"},"modified":"2019-05-15T13:50:07","modified_gmt":"2019-05-15T17:50:07","slug":"the-divided-self","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/?p=6335","title":{"rendered":"The divided self"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>There is a split in my mind, in my love of life. It makes me crazy.<\/p>\n<p>Painting, photography, writing essays, singing &#8230; these make me feel happy and free when I&#8217;m immersed in them.<\/p>\n<p>But always the argument from the other side of the brain.<\/p>\n<p><em>That&#8217;s not enough.\u00a0<\/em><em style=\"line-height: 1.6471;\">It&#8217;s not practical. <\/em><\/p>\n<p><em style=\"line-height: 1.6471;\">You can&#8217;t make a living at that. There&#8217;s no money in it.<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>No one wants your creative work.\u00a0<\/em><em>You&#8217;ll just end up in an asylum.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>So I <a href=\"http:\/\/nearmediallc.com\" target=\"_blank\">apply myself to<\/a> managing projects, consulting, writing proposals, helping journalists in struggling or so-called democracies. Which is all valuable and worthy.<\/p>\n<p>And when I consider what to do next, that practical brain says that data science is the way to go.<\/p>\n<p>I <a href=\"http:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/?p=6153\" target=\"_blank\">like math<\/a>, I love solving real-world problems, I enjoy helping people answer questions.<\/p>\n<p>But when I talk about it, somehow data science just doesn&#8217;t feel as good. Maybe that&#8217;s because it&#8217;s less familiar, much more to learn, and I&#8217;m only beginning.<\/p>\n<p>All my life, though, I have wanted both worlds. The art, and the math.<\/p>\n<p>How to do both?<\/p>\n<p>Loads of people have this dilemma. The normal way to solve it is to have your practical day job, and to pursue your art in your free time.<\/p>\n<p>That just doesn&#8217;t work for me. It is the source of this crazy-making division in me.<\/p>\n<p>Media development has, at times, brought the two halves together. Working with journalists overseas demands creativity and problem-solving. My best projects had a lot of both.<\/p>\n<p>The other thing that my art and my math sides have in common is this: I love to create content. It&#8217;s not so simple as &#8220;story-telling.&#8221; It is the expression of information, ideas, feelings in a way that resonates with people, that gives them a different perspective.<\/p>\n<p>Here&#8217;s hoping that I can improvise a\u00a0path that\u00a0brings my divided self together.<\/p>\n<p>Today&#8217;s penny is a 2015 because I don&#8217;t have a 2016.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/01\/jan-2-2015.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-6376\" src=\"http:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/01\/jan-2-2015-300x194.jpg\" alt=\"jan 2 2015\" width=\"300\" height=\"194\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/01\/jan-2-2015-300x194.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/01\/jan-2-2015.jpg 640w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>There is a split in my mind, in my love of life. It makes me crazy. Painting, photography, writing essays, singing &#8230; these make me feel happy and free when I&#8217;m immersed in them. But always the argument from the other side of the brain. That&#8217;s not enough.\u00a0It&#8217;s not practical. You can&#8217;t make a living &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/?p=6335\" class=\"more-link\">read more <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">The divided self<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":6373,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[316],"tags":[67,35,429,528,446,527],"class_list":["post-6335","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-improvisation","tag-67","tag-art","tag-career","tag-dilemma","tag-math","tag-path"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6335","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=6335"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6335\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6377,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6335\/revisions\/6377"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/6373"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=6335"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=6335"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=6335"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}