Dec. 19 – I was alone again this afternoon. Ann left for New York, and Tom had wrap-up work to do at the condo before vacation could really begin for him.<\/p>\n
I didn’t have much energy to do anything. I laid on the couch, sobbing.<\/p>\n
Now that I’ve had company, I realize that being alone during this recovery is not good for me.<\/p>\n
I thought at least I could answer some emails. I’ve had so many since this happened.<\/p>\n
Working on the computer for any length of time is still difficult. But, thanks to the speech recognition built into my iPhone, I can dictate. I use this function a lot and it seems as though the software has learned my voice.<\/p>\n
Today it wasn’t working. It was as though I had become someone else. As though even my voice had changed. This just made me cry harder.<\/p>\n
It seems crazy, choking out sentences like, “I’m doing much better,” and “The doctors tell me I’ll be fine,” while crying. The sentences were true, and I didn’t sugar-coat any of my emails.<\/p>\n
But I could listen to myself – my words and my sobs – and hear the whole picture of my recovery.<\/p>\n
There were a lot of mistakes in the text spewed out by the dictation function.<\/p>\n
I don’t even sound like myself.\u00a0<\/em>Won’t I ever be normal again?<\/em><\/p>\n More crying.<\/p>\n Then I got a grip. This speech recognition on my phone is not personalized. So the mistakes in the text weren’t happening because\u00a0I don’t sound like myself.<\/p>\n Somewhere in the cloud<\/a>, where speech is converted to text, my words and phrases become part of all the data. And the software continues to improve because of all these users.<\/p>\n But it hasn’t learned my voice, in particular. In fact it’s\u00a0the other way around: I’ve learned how to speak so that the speech recognition understands.<\/p>\n And I just couldn’t do it today.<\/p>\n The penny for the day is a 2012, because I dictated\u00a012 emails.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Dec. 19 – I was alone again this afternoon. Ann left for New York, and Tom had wrap-up work to do at the condo before vacation could really begin for him. I didn’t have much energy to do anything. I laid on the couch, sobbing. Now that I’ve had company, I realize that being alone … read more Alone again, part 2<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":6360,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[318],"tags":[52,524,522,492,504,423,523,259],"class_list":["post-6353","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-refraction","tag-52","tag-communications","tag-crying","tag-loneliness","tag-recovery","tag-software","tag-speech","tag-writing"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6353","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=6353"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6353\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6361,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6353\/revisions\/6361"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/6360"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=6353"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=6353"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=6353"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}