{"id":6593,"date":"2016-01-18T20:58:38","date_gmt":"2016-01-19T01:58:38","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/?p=6593"},"modified":"2019-05-15T13:50:06","modified_gmt":"2019-05-15T17:50:06","slug":"self-contained","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/?p=6593","title":{"rendered":"Self, contained"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>It&#8217;s hard to think of myself as someone who&#8217;s been traumatized.<\/p>\n<p>That term should be reserved for people who have been victimized in some way, my critical inner voice says. People who were beaten, raped, or hit by shrapnel &#8211; that&#8217;s trauma.<\/p>\n<p>Today I found myself watching a video with therapist <a href=\"http:\/\/www.traumahealing.org\/peter-a-levine-phd.php\" target=\"_blank\">Peter Levine<\/a> about <a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=1ZpZvxhk8Ew\" target=\"_blank\">&#8220;self-soothing&#8221; techniques<\/a> for people who have been traumatized.<\/p>\n<p>The techniques involve putting your hands in ways that are comforting. One is like giving yourself a hug. The other covers vital organs &#8211; head, heart, intestines.<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s a way to create a container, Levine explained.<\/p>\n<blockquote><p>&#8220;When we can feel our body as the container, then the emotions and the sensations do not feel so overwhelming &#8211; they&#8217;re being contained.&#8221;<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>People who&#8217;ve been traumatized, he said, have &#8220;a hole in their boundary.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>That stopped me.<\/p>\n<p>I have a hole in my boundary <a href=\"http:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/?p=6401\" target=\"_blank\">where the mantel is<\/a>. Whenever something sharp approaches my head, I put my hands up.<\/p>\n<p>The <a href=\"http:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/?p=6315\" target=\"_blank\">surgeons drilled<\/a> a hole in my head. Just reading about it gave me an anxiety attack.<\/p>\n<p>The bone of my skull should be grown back together by now, I guess.<\/p>\n<p>But the hole is still there.<\/p>\n<p>I don&#8217;t want to say my trauma equates with the trauma of anyone that&#8217;s been a victim of a direct attack. I&#8217;m just one step closer to understanding how they might feel.<\/p>\n<p>Many kinds\u00a0of trauma create holes that aren&#8217;t visible. <a href=\"http:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/?p=6548\" target=\"_blank\">Scars that heal <\/a>but still hurt.<\/p>\n<p>Today&#8217;s penny is a 2015 for the day that hole ruptured\u00a0in my head.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It&#8217;s hard to think of myself as someone who&#8217;s been traumatized. That term should be reserved for people who have been victimized in some way, my critical inner voice says. People who were beaten, raped, or hit by shrapnel &#8211; that&#8217;s trauma. Today I found myself watching a video with therapist Peter Levine about &#8220;self-soothing&#8221; &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/?p=6593\" class=\"more-link\">read more <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Self, contained<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":6600,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[318],"tags":[67,579,578,577],"class_list":["post-6593","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-refraction","tag-67","tag-boundary","tag-hole","tag-trauma"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6593","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=6593"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6593\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6601,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6593\/revisions\/6601"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/6600"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=6593"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=6593"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lisaschnellinger.com\/pennies\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=6593"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}