DECEMBER 20: One thing I’ve noticed about my recovery-era feelings and behaviors is that they are unquestionably genuine.<\/p>\n
I don’t have to wonder whether they are some psychodrama I’m re-enacting, or some manipulative behavior that my devious subconscious has come up with.<\/p>\n
They come straight from inside my own head, unfiltered, authentic. And they’re not new.<\/p>\n
They’re me. Only moreso.<\/p>\n
Here’s what my brain is forcing me to admit, acknowledge, or deal with:<\/p>\n
I like to sleep in.<\/p>\n
Clutter makes me feel insane.<\/p>\n
Technology is fine as a production tool, but it often gets in the way of creativity.<\/p>\n
I need to spend more time just being in one place and absorbing my own thoughts.<\/p>\n
I shouldn’t try to do so much. It exhausts me.<\/p>\n
I like flowers and other prettiness.<\/p>\n
I don’t like violent movies.<\/p>\n
It’s important to wear comfortable clothes; it makes me friendlier and nicer to other people, too.<\/p>\n
I enjoy it when I don’t have to take care of anyone but myself.<\/p>\n
Talking on the phone for more than 30 minutes is annoying unless it is someone I love.<\/p>\n
I shouldn’t try to do so much.<\/p>\n
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